I Don't Have To Look At The Big Picture Now

Thoughts
My mind has been all over the place lately and it still is as of this morning. But as I'm writing this, I told myself to take a step back, pause for a moment and breathe. What making me feel miserable? What do I want to achieve and how do I achieve it?

Before I begin I realize the pen and paper I have on hand, jotting down my usual to do list is what's causing it. I'm crunching time, doing everything I wanted to do in the few hours I have in a day, not knowing if it's the right one is making me head go ballistic. Because I began to question myself. Is this the right way of doing it? Should I be doing this instead of that?

I was so caught up with the steps to get to my goal that I forgot the very essence of why I'm doing this in the first place. Why do I wake up at 4 am everyday to workout? Because I want to feel good in my own skin. Why am I spending so much time on this new project? Because I want to change how people think about consumerism.

I realize I have to live each day with an intention and purpose and that I don't have to look at the big picture now because that exist in the future. What I have in my head may not exactly be it. It's just an idea of what I hope to achieve but that's about it.