I'm putting up this wall again, the kind that protects me from feeling any sort of emotion and expectations from anyone that can hurt me. It's easier, more humane than being drowned in the sea of false hopes and none.

I don't want to feel anything. I'd rather not care than be vulnerable suffer from any anxiety, wonder and all that shit.

I think I know enough and I know better.

I think I'm at a point where I don't care anymore. I want to be carefree and live life how I want it. Forget responsibilities, forget about jobs that sucks.  I want to be sporadic, see the world, go on an adventure, be an artist for once, write freely, paint, draw, anything that inspires me. I just want to do things whatever we want, whatever we like.

Maybe if you let me be your lover, maybe if you tried then I would not bother
Everything and nothing always haunts me, I know you're trying, I know you're trying
Waiting for your moment to fall on me, I saw you trying, I saw you trying

I always believe that people come to our lives for a reason. Whether it's to teach us a lesson or inspire us, there's always something to be learned.

I feel like I'm back in this crossroad again. Didn't I just had this a few months back? But maybe this time around it will be different, a slight difference I assume. Only because you're more positive than he is, the other is an obvious rebel.

I'm not the most positive person and in reality I just see life as how it is. I'm a dreamer. I have an imaginary view of what my life should be instead of embracing what I have right now.

I don't know where I'm getting myself with this, but let me put it this way, spending time with you and knowing you makes me want to better myself, to live life right now and to run down the streets with stars in my eyes.