It's our tradition isn't it? Every time our trip has come to an end we ask each other our highlights or if there's anything new that we learn form one another. You told me that after this trip you realize that you can make sacrifices for me; to make me happy, to make sure I'm okay. I know this was our first holiday after I became vegan and it wasn't easy for you. Hearing those words meant a lot to me and I love you even more.

Lately I noticed that I tend to jump from one thing to another. New ideas are coming out and I want to get into it then later realizing it's not what I want and move on and the same thing happens again. Finding myself in this cycle makes me question whether I have the drive to give my time and effort to see an idea through and stick with it. Yet at the same time, if my interest has fallen out and a new idea comes out again, I don't want to get tired of exploring it.

When all this while I was waiting for you, little did I know you were waiting for me too.

It's been more than week since I committed to becoming a vegan and it's tough. I haven't eaten meat since my post on veganism but yes I did have eggs and dairy. I didn't realize how challenging it would be to completely cut those 2 out especially when you go out with someone and honestly, I'm starting to crave meat. I mean I usually eat plant based on my own but this time it's complete cold turkey. I knew this is gonna happen because I've tried this before and I had the same cravings. I'm not sure how long I can hold up but they say the toughest part is 60 days, I'm on my 11th so we'll see.

If there's one thing I know that I kind of slip off here and there is being in control. Particularly about the food I eat. Food has always been a big thing / issue for me because part of me wants to lose weight but part of me wants to eat as well. It's hard long battle but I'm learning to be more in control especially when situation arises that caught me off guard.

It's amazing how the simplest things we do for ourselves can inspire others once it's shared. To me that's sharing my thoughts through writing and even the simplest act of creating something; whether it's painting, colouring anything, somehow somewhere it travels and inspires people to do the same. My heart fills with joy knowing it could change someone's lives or help them get back to do what they used to enjoy before. It triumphs everything and it makes me want to keep going.

Yesterday 10 Feb 2018 was the day I officially decided to become a vegan. Why? A number of reasons.

1) I don't usually eat meat because I can't digest a huge amount of it and I find that my body respond better on eating plant-based foods. Even cooking raw meat and fish is disgusting to me.

2) I discovered I'm lactose intolerant in 2016.

3). It's something I've constantly dilly-dallying about but never fully committed to. I've posted a entry Can I Really Be Vegan? and Veganism in 2016.

4) I've read enough information in the past and watch other Youtubers their story, reasons and experiences and it really made me think twice.

5) This video "Best Speech You'll Have Hear" solidifies it. Gary mentioned that we practice compassion and love to each other but why can't we do the same thing to animals.

6) Went to Singapore Zoo yesterday for the first time and I can't stomach eating another living animal.

I can't help but feel sad and broken hearted whenever I hear relationships fail, especially those that have been together long enough that I see them past any storm. It makes me reflect on my own relationship and want to do better and work harder to keep it strong and alive.

It's just heart breaking but it serves as a good reminder that I have to do my part to have a happy and peaceful relationship.

Dear Future Self,

How are you? How is your life going right now? If you ask me well I'm here at Dentsu writing this letter to you at my desk at exactly 9:37am. You met the love of your life last year in May 2017 and wasn't that the most unexpected and unbelievable experience of your life? I mean you guys travel so much in a span of 6 months and that's just the beginning. I bet there's a lot of changes in your life right now and I'm sure you are in a good place.

Right now I'm filled with things I want to do. You see I started this 100 things in 1001 days and I'm trying to fulfill that to experience new things and get out of my comfort zone. Things has been a bit stale lately but I'm looking forward to traveling to Bangkok for the first time in 23 Feb. I'm also close to finishing the Purpose Driven Life and thereafter I'll start reading the bible. Isn't amazing how this practice creates a habit to start the morning with the Lord? It's such a good feeling.

On a more professional note well I want to move out of ad agency. I've been in this industry close to 10 years and I hope to move to apparel or cosmetic brands. We'll see how that goes but for now I'm still okay with where I'm at.

Want some advice sweetheart? Be okay with yourself regardless of where you're at; whether it be your weight, career, relationship, anything. Know that these are all planned for you and where you are is where you should be. Do you remember what we've learn in the past couple of days? Our purpose on this earth is to honor and serve the Lord. Him and only him. Spend time with your friends, go out, catch up with them. You've been so secluded lately and I encourage you to go out there because from what we've learned that's the only way we can develop our character to be like Christ and this is what we'll take with us in heaven. Don't stop going after your dreams even if you're 35 now. I know you still have a lot of things you want to do and see, go do them regardless what other people say. Keep your faith much like what you have now, be strong and know that the Lord is always with you and for relationship well remember this, RESPECT him. Always LISTEN, be PATIENT AND FORGIVE. Both of you are going far. It may not be easy but know that you have each other and believe that the Lord meant it to be that way.

Love always,
From your coming to 30 year old self.

I've attempted to do this before but it wasn't something that's well thought out. But now I had sometime and made a full 100 list to do in 1001 days. Credit goes to Design Darling of course for coming up with this!

Start Date: 6 Feb 2018
End Date: 3 Nov 2020

Arts and Classes 
1. Study art class
2. Try pottery class
3. Learn calligraphy
4. Take a fashion course
5. Attend a floral arrangement class
6. Attend a wine class
7. Attend a cocktail mixing class
8. Do yoga teacher training
9. Knit a throw blanket
10. Complete a new painting
11. Make a piece of art aside from painting
12. Write a short story series at Wattpad
13. Complete a 500 piece puzzle
14. Complete a lego puzzle
15. Complete 3x adult colouring books
16. Complete my 20's entry in Wattpad
17. Go to a book signing event
18. Attend at least 3 creative mornings session
19. Learn to play a musical instrument
20. Complete 5 DIY items on Pinterest
21. Complete 1 year of photo art journal
22. Go to 3 free outdoor events in Singapore (sports etc.)

Fitness and Wellness
23. Floss everyday for 30 days
24. Be a vegan for a month
25. Do hot yoga for a month
26. Go wall climbing
27. Meditate everyday for 21 days
28. Finish 12 weeks of Kyla Itsines workout
29. Complete a Lauren Gleisberg workout
30. Workout 5x a week for a month
32. Take a boxing class
33. Go on a wellness retreat
34. Go for a full medical exam
35. Establish a proper skin care routine (serums and eye cream)
36. Get my cavity fix
37. Get LASIK eye surgery
38. Do a food intolerance check
39. Do DNA test
40. Get down to 45kg

Cooking
41. Bake a pie
42. Make my own pasta
43. Bake a cake
44. Bake guilt free brownies
45. Cook a Filipino food
46. Make a lasagna
47. Bake a bread
48. Bake a banana bread
49. Cooked at least 10 new vegan dish
50. Cook at least 3 dishes from each of the cook books I own

Travel
51. Visit 3 new countries
52. Travel to 10 new places I've never been before
53. Stay in a hostel
54. See a snow
55. Watch the Brooklyn sunset
56. Go on a cruise
57. Walk along the beach of south america
58. Take a trip with another couple

Finance
59. Go 1 month without shopping unless it's a necessity
60. Invest in a health insurance
61. Invest money
62. Start a retirement plan
63. Put $10 dollars for every goal accomplished

Professional
64. Establish a freelance writing portfolio job
65. Launch The Thrift Project
66. Get a job in fashion

Just For Fun
67. Run 5k with boyfriend
68. Watch a movie under the stars
69. Have a picnic with boyfriend
70. Attend an art fair
71. Try a new hair colour
72. Host a house party
73. Host a holiday party
74. Organize a cloths swapping event
75. Go on a hot air balloon ride
76. Go on a helicopter ride
77. Go horseback riding
78. Go parasailing
79. Go zip lining
80. Go to a zoo
81. Volunteer in a church
82. Donate to a charity
83. Do a fund raising event
84. Purchase something for a good cause
85. Watch 5 indie movies
86. Complete 3 freeform series that I love and enjoy
87. Watch a broadway show
88. Watch a circus show
89. Write a letter to myself and open it on my 35 birthday
90. Finish reading the bible
91. No purchasing of clothes for 6 months
92. No makeup buying for 6 months
93. Try a food truck food
94. Visit 10 new restaurants in Singapore
95. Watch a sports games live
96. Buy a vintage camera
97. Purchase a photo printer
98. Read a When Breath Becomes Air
99. Read a Haruki Murakami book
100. Do a 3 day juice cleanse
101. Complete this list

I don't think I'll ever stop writing. It's my safe ground. My avenue of self expression. It has help me cope through goods times and bad and it's in my hopes that some way some how I get to help someone deals with life, that they are not alone, that someone in this world also experiences the same as them and that know that everything will be okay.

After the hurdle last week and over the weekend, we came to a conclusion that there are 3 things we need to remember; to listen, to be patient and to forgive. Words that may seem simple but hard to do.

I don't want to feel that life is just a never-ending meaningless motion because I believe there is more to it. I crave change yet I'm scared. Every time I wake up I feel like it's the same thing over again. I wake up, workout, go to work, go home, rest and sleep. It's just sad to be like this.