2017 was such an amazing year and it tops that of 2016, 2015 and 2014 . If I think about it I'm truly blessed and I wouldn't have it any other way. I set out 2017 to be the year of change and it has. I focused on 2 goals, to save money and be healthy and fit and I achieve both and more....

This year I'm proud to say that I have read 28 books. Whoohoo! In the past 2 years I've only read 18 books and I think reading graphic novels and poetry help up my number. You can see all the books I've read in Goodreads here.  So what made it to my top 5 of 2017? Here are the books in order. 1....

1. A book made into a move you've already seen 2. True crime 3. The next book in the series you started 4. A book involving a heist 5. Nordic Nor 6. A novel based on a real person 7. A book set in a country that fascinates you 8. A book with a time in a day in the title 9. A book about a villain...

Dear 2018 I'm writing this on 11 Dec 2017 and I wonder what you'll bring. I wonder what new challenges and experiences you have in store, I wonder what surprises you have waiting that has yet to knock on my door. Please be kind, that's all I ask...

I feel like life is forcing me to grow up. From the decisions I'm making to the plans I have in the future. While there is comfort in staying where I am I knew I had to grow up. I want to think that I'm still in a crossroad but perhaps I'm already past that...

My head was spiralling down last night but after a much needed drink I woke up with a new light. I felt a new, embraced by love, feeling the spirit hugging my existence now, guiding me in the days ahead. There's so much to be thankful for. And I'm here right now alive and living. ...

I was thinking about my fitness goals for the next year and I realize there are areas that needs improvement; primarily my diet and legs, damn those needs toning up. Not forgetting that I have developed a consistent workout habit this year, next year I'm taking it up a notch. 1. Develop a healthy...

Oh hey December! What a joy you must bring, what new experiences and adventure awaits. Exactly 21 days from now I'll be in the plane flying off to Amsterdam. Amsterdam, Brussels and Berlin I'm coming for you! ...

There's always this one girl in a man's life that makes his heart sing a million songs. I hope I am that to you...

I think I have reached my own threshold of complains. Saying I want to do this I want to do that I might do this I might do that but I never do anyway. I don't know if it's because I want to get this year done and over with or just the fact that I'm to lazy and can't be bothered to spend that...

I reach out my hand to you despite the feeling that I don't want to. Yet here I am with my untainted soul humbled down in hopes no sight of bitterness is in your eyes, in your voice. You welcome me like yesterday was long forgotten and responded with the same view in your eyes like I've always...

I''m okay. I'm human. That in spite of what I think, it doesn't matter. We are ashes after all, waiting to be blown away and into infinity. ...

6:22am As the day begins and our lives starts to unfold, I wonder about what the lives of others are. Not the people around me but the characters on the books I have yet to finish, the authors who's works sunk deep to my soul. Perhaps their lives are more interesting than mine or perhaps I find...

When I was young my mom used to tell me that there is a time for study and time for play. Now that I'm all grown up I realize how true this still is. There is a time for work, time for play, time to nurture relationships and time for rest. As things gets a little bit overwhelming, I paused and...

I can't keep my mind still. It's all over the place yet this is where I feel the safest. I want to hide in my own thoughts, in own my world where no one can hurt me, where no one can judge me for what I do and for what I say. It's just me and this world I created in my head. I'm happy here. It's...

After nearly a decade of writing my thoughts in here I realise I've just kept record of my 20s. Wow and I just did that unconsciously. We've seen and heard people keeping a journal here and there but most of us never see the value in it. To be honest, I was one of them. I attempted to do the whole...

I was reading my devotion yesterday and the message prompts me to reflect on what had happened thus far this year. It said that when God takes something away from you, trust that He will give you a life of abundance and that's exactly what happened to me. I was intending to move to Toronto once...

Holiday season is almost here with autumn scents filled the room, tickets booked and plans for Christmas are almost set. If you can't tell from the image, yes! I'm going to Berlin! Well that and Amsterdam. I'm just polishing up some documents and I'm good to go, what a way to end the year. I feel...

October has left me with plans confirmed, things to ponder and to work on for 2018. Exciting things are happening...

I was watching one of the YouTubers I follow and her mom quoted something that stuck with me. She said you've got to have faith in the future and that your decisions shouldn't be based on fear because then you'll never move forward...

It's been 4 years since I last went home and this time it was different. I stayed at my boyfriend's place and we spend the week meeting friends, visiting Dentsu Philippines office, went to Duty Free, playing at the casino, eating filipino food etc. Mostly it's to check out the new condo he got...

I'm back in my hometown as I'm writing this and the other day we visited the school I spend 14 years of my life. I saw the old apartment that I used to stay at during lunch breaks, the restaurants I used to eat at and familiar faces that is still there since forever.  As I observe the people...

My heart is dancing; dancing in your love, in your arms, in our lives together, it's just happy...

Day 15 Subject: Impermanence Mantra: It won't always be like this. Words: Remember impermanence when things go badly so you will not be overly burden by your troubles. And remember it when things go well so you will be present enough to cherish the sweet moments of your life. ...

Day 14 Subject: Suffering Mantra: Life maybe be difficult but I don't need to suffer Words: The difficulty was there all along. Although we may have feelings about it, whether we suffer is up to us. We have a choice. ...

As cliche as this may sound we all know it's valid. Change is uncomfortable whether it's imposed upon us or something we want to do for ourselves. I must admit I struggle with this a number of times; from my diet to exercise to work place you name it, it's all but change and it's something I need...

Day 13 Subject: Attachment and Aversion Mantra: Will this be important in a year? Words: The process of experiencing the difficulty now allows you to heal....

Day 12 Subject: Patience Mantra: There's always enough time. Words: All these times, waiting, sitting and understanding are valuable. I can choose not to experience them as wasted time by choosing to be present and live these precious moments....

Day 11 Subject: Fear Words: We can choose to observe our fears and bring awareness back to what is happening in the present. Mantra: Right here, right now. ...

Spending too much time in Singapore calls for a much needed overnight trip to Malacca. It's my first time there so it was exciting to see what the city can offer. 30 Sep - 1 Oct 2017 Most of the popular sites are around Jonker Street so we walked around visiting historical sites such as the Dutch...

As the new month rolls around and the holidays are here, I can't help but think of all the amazing things that happened this year and plan for the months ahead. As for October it's going to be a month of hometown and planning. Cheers to October...

Day 10 Subject: Control Words: We cannot control the behaviours of others. And any attempt to do so will backfire. Mantra: What can I let go of right now?...

Last night and this morning was hard for me. I start questioning, doubting, reevaluating my circumstances if it's still worth moving forward. I asked opinions from friends, asked myself more questions and I found myself crying in the washroom for a good minute. I'm lost and I don't know what...

Day 9 Subject: Compassion Mantra: When I act from the heart, I always know what to do. Words: Compassion is to be expressed to everyone at all times...

How easy it is for our youth to fade away? How careless and happy we were then, with no thoughts of the future. We were just naive living life for what we know when people tell us not so. When little do they know, there's treasure to be found in bit and pieces of life we sow...

Day 8 Subject: Relaxation Mantra: Never pass up a chance to do nothing. Words: Don't believe your thoughts...

Day 7 Subject: Courage Mantra: I will do what is possible. Words: Your work is to distinguish what is important enough to require your commitment and what is not worthy...

Day 6 Subject: Perspective Mantra: I am grateful. Words: We benefit from maintaining perspective about what is happening in life, right here right now. We often forget to trust the whisperings of our heart. Cultivate gratitude...

Day 5 Subject: Faith Mantra: I have faith in myself. Words: Unless we have faith in the ability of the methods of self transformation, we are unable to continue them when the going gets difficult, boring and demanding...

While I was doing my practice this morning, I remembered a quote that goes a long the line of nothing is permanent, that we own nothing in this world, that we are all ashes. The thought of this makes me realize how all anger, frustration, worry and fear, even material possessions, relationships...

Day 4 Subject: Self-Judgement Mantra: I am choosing to let go of my self-judgement now. Words: There is no way I can be harsh to myself and be compassionate to others at the same time. Bring a sense of the comfortable with your inner life, to your thoughts and how you speak to yourself...

Day 3   Subject: Letting go  Mantra: This is the perfect moment to let go.  Words: You are to give up your attachment to the way you think things are. ...

Remember when I intend to set 2018 as the year of creativity? Well scrap that out. A month after and I'm changing it to focus on the year of Action. As uncomfortable as I am putting this down, I knew it was necessary. I don't want to blame it on my relationship, though a lot has to do with my...

Day 2  Subject: Discipline Mantra: I give myself fully to each moment. Words: Discipline is doing what is possible with consistency. Less about accomplishment and more to do with intention and commitment. Task: List a things that you've always wanted to do but never find a time to do. Choose...

I've been tapping into yoga and reading books about spiritually lately as I find that it helps me deal with my relationship. Not that I'm in a bad one but rather I'm more of a negative ball as compared to him. He is more positive, always telling me to let go and move forward, something I'm not used...

Sweetheart, Thanks for your love. For always making me feel love whenever we are together. I'm working on myself as I'm sure you know, to be better in this relationship. To not be a ball of sadness but rather be a person filled with joy and peace. You've always showed me how to let go and move...

To see your name pop up on my phone last night was not something I expect to see. We haven't talked in months and I wonder what made you think of messaging me. To be honest, I thought about it as well before but I hold myself back because it wasn't necessary. We both have our own lives now and...

Hey Sweetheart, I know we just spoke last night but I just want you to remember this. You are loved and I am here with you. I know how you feel and I understood it. We've been through so much haven't we? I've seen you happy, sad and times when you felt uncertain in life. I was there to talk you...

I feel so meh today. So uninspired by anything in life. I know I should be excited because I have a new project brewing up but I just don't feel great today. I don't know if it's because my body doesn't feel right after eating some sort of dairy that I wasn't aware of last night or that my phone...

Remember back in December 2016 I mentioned something about the need to contribute to society? It took me 8 months to figure it out and now I have. I'm starting a project that won't be revealed till later this year but the key milestones thus far? Bought the domain name and found a charity organisation...