I have so many thoughts in my head and I don't even know where to begin. I feel like I'm in a crossroad and I'm not sure which one to take. All I know is where I'm now is not where I want to be. I want to do something else but I don't think I have the courage for it just yet.

Last Saturday night it hit me, I don't know for what reason. Reason I can't remember. Someone told me something and I didn't realise how much I was hurt. How I refuse to trust and believe anything anymore because whenever I do, I get hurt and I'm so tired of it.

How do I explain this? How do I explain that every time I see you in a space where there is no one but just you.. right there, standing, waiting, my heart skips like it found its home in the comforts of your being. How do you do it?